Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Literary Lover


When will the next HP book be out? I can't wait much longer!

Friday, February 23, 2007

The Land Before Time

This week, Abigail has been learning about dinosaurs. And singing about them, too. To the tune of "Yankee Doodle:"

"Dinosaurs lived long ago. They were pretty-historic."

So what if they were pre-historic. I bet they were pretty-historic, too.

But maybe she has learned a bit too much about dinosaurs. Which she is happy to share with the entire Friendly's restaurant:

"What are you doing?"

"I'm drawing you a picture, Momma."

"Oh, great! What's this?"

"This is a dinosaur. And this is the dinosaur's VAGINA!"

A brief history of my love life.

At times, it is through the words of others that we best come to understand outselves. To that end, I give you this quote from Act 5 of Shakespeare's Othello:

I pray you, in your letters,
When you shall these unlucky deeds relate,
Speak of me as I am; nothing extenuate,
Nor set down aught in malice: then must you speak
Of one that loved not wisely but too well

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Good Night

A bedtime story.

About ducks.

What more could you want?

Back in the saddle again

For four hours I held back my tears and tried to just do my job. I wanted to scream or yell or tell them that they needed to help me like they said they would. I wanted to snap back at the doctor who bit my head off. I wanted to tell the nurse taking report to freaking STOP INTERRUPTING ME! It felt like a conspiracy to piss me off... to overwhelm me... to see how much it would take to make me break.

And then people seem surprised when I say "nurses eat their young."

Three 12-hour shifts in a row is a lot. Add to that the fact that it was a weekend, we were short staffed, and the charge nurse that was on doesn't like me, and Sunday night was a recipe for disaster. Which it turned out to be.

And now I have to go back tonight. I want to call off already, and my shift doesn't start for another 12 hours. But I can't call off- I won't call off. Because it's like riding a horse; if you fall off, you need to get right back on. Keep going. Or else you will continue to let your fears dictate your actions until you simply can't get back on the horse. I'm not that girl. So tonight, 7pm, watch out. I'll be back, with a vengeance.

Friday, February 16, 2007

(And they weren't even good!)

Tuesday, Feb. 13

4pm- Wake up after 6 hours of sleep. We are in the midst of a "Winter Storm Warning" and the babysitter has called off for tonight. Plans are changing, and I have to take Abigail to Brandi's house tonight. Get ready for work.

6pm- Depart daycare en route to Brandi's house. Average roundtrip time: 40 minutes. Today's roundtrip time:1 hour 15 min. Windshield wipers freeze over twice during trip in 4" snow and freezing rain.

10:30pm- Depart for work.

Wednesday, Feb. 14

8am- Depart work en route to Brandi's house. Average roundtrip time: 40 minutes. Today's roundtrip time: 1 hour 40 minutes. Trip is through 6-8" snow over sheets of ice. Get stuck in snow only once!

12:30pm- Go to sleep.

4pm- Wake up. (Total sleep time, 3 hours 30 min.) Dig car out of snow and out of being plowed in, total time, 1 hour.

6pm- Pick Abigail up from daycare. Help Doctor John dig his car out from under snow, and from being plowed in- total time: 35 min.

Thursday, Feb. 15

12am- Go to bed. Despite being very tired, I find it difficult to fall asleep.

4:30am- Convert from being "mostly awake" to being "fully awake." (Total sleep time, 4 hours.)

6:18am- After being awake nearly 2 hours, pull out laptop to check email/blogs before attempting to go back to sleep.

6:20am- HOLY STINK! I am supposed to be at work in 40 minutes for overtime that I picked up!!!!!

7:00am- Arrive at work after showering and getting ready and taking Abigail to daycare. Due to parking/shuttle difficulties, arrive on unit at 7:10.

8:00am- Receive request to stay an extra 4 hours (I was scheduled to 11am, asked to stay until 3pm.) In a moment of weakness, agree and then immediately start regretting it. I am in no shape to be working a whole day! I've only gotten 7 hours and 30 minutes of sleep in the past 2 days! (And they weren't even good!)

8:10am- Doctor John becomes my hero when he delivers coffee and a bagel with cream cheese to me on the unit.

3:45pm- Attempt mulitple times to "swipe out" so that I can leave. Badge rejected at least 15 times. Walk up a flight of stairs to find another place to swipe out.

Currently (9:02pm)- Pooped out. Going to bed!

Sunday, February 11, 2007

Bringing back the B word

"Crazy B****."

"Pardon me?" I reply.

"That song, Crazy B****, do you know it?"

"Um, no. But I do know that other song... how does it go? I'm a HMM, I'm a lover, I'm a child, I'm a mother..." I sing.

My patient smiles and sings along.

"You know, Grace, I think that is your theme song."

I smile back. "Yeah, I'm hard core, man."

Later, I relate the story to Doctor John.

"My patient was totally saying the "B" word today."

"The B word!" Abigail exclaims.

I blush and cringe that my 4 year old daughter knows the "B" word.

"The B word! B-O-O-T-S! BOOTS!" she hollers.


“Adversity is like a strong wind. I don't mean just that it holds us back from places we might otherwise go. It also tears away from us all but the things that cannot be torn, so that afterward we see ourselves as we really are, and not merely as we might like to be."

Memoirs of a Geisha

by Arthur Golden

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

The Dragon*

Christina: "... I'd really like to have the baby at this hospital that is closer to where I live, but I would have to pay $1500 out-of-pocket, and here, it's free..."

Grace: "Well, for my money, and knowing the cost of a baby, I would have it at the free place."

Christina: "Yeah, well, I can see your point. But the other thing is, well... I'm not exactly the nicest person when I am tired and hungry... and I don't really want the people I work with knowing what a b**** I can be."

Grace: "Too late."

*Christina and her hubby call the baby in her tummy "the dragon." This is not to be confused with the "green dragon" of envy.


Grace: "... hmm...hmm... with the lips of an angel..."

Nancy: "Hey Grace, who sings that song?"

Grace: "Hinder."

Nancy: "Why don't you let them, then..."

Monday, February 05, 2007


Sometimes I log in and hit "New Post" because I have something to say- I have something that I want to get off my chest or to work out as my fingers hit the keys.

Other times I log in and hit "New Post" as a challenge to myself... a challenge to find one thought, pin it down, and get it out. A challenge to make my thinking slow down enough to match the speed of my fingers. A challenge to tune out all of the distractions and focus on the root.

This post is one of the latter.

And my mind is so full, my thoughts are racing so much, my consciousness so muddied by the sensory overload that is my life, that I am finding it hard to pin down just one thought. And so it seems that the only thought I can pin down is the idea that I might just have adult ADD.

What do you think?

Thursday, February 01, 2007


"You're right. It's not the falling in love with you that's difficult. It's the staying."
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