Well, since I am at work and can't do schoolwork right now, I thought I would "cheat" a bit and update my blog.
Thank you to everyone who is encouraging me in the wait for a referral. I am bathed in a sense of peace about my referral- it will come at just the right time. Not a moment to soon, and not a moment too late. God knows what He is doing, and I trust Him with this.
When I was pregnant, I went to a routine doctors appointment and within hours I was hooked up to machines and receiving medications to induce labor. They had found a few concerning things on physical exam, followed up with an ultrasound, sent me to an emergent ultrasound with a specialist, and directly admitted me to the hospital. I wasn't planning for Abigail to come then; in fact, I hadn't even packed my suitcase!
But God knew just what He was doing. If my doctors appointment had been a few days earlier, the complications might have been missed. If my appointment had been a few days later, Abigail might not have made it. God was looking out for me and baby Abigail, and He knew just when to make things happen- even if it wasn't my plan:)
So, I feel really comfortable in this waiting. Yes, I am eager to hold my little girl. I want to be with her, to love on her, to bring happiness and joy and love into her life like she has already brought into mine. I am impatient to hold her little hand while we walk to the ice cream store, to share a scoop of Butter Pecan and see her face when she gets "brain freeze", to stroll home under a sky full of stars, and to tuck her and Abigail into bed and say our prayers of thanksgiving. I hopeful in my anticipation, thinking of how I will comb her hair into puffs and rub lotion onto her little arms and legs. I can hardly contain my excitement of sharing a new granddaughter with my parents, and seeing her hugging people who mean so much to me. And I could burst, knowing how much Abigail loves her little sister.
But I am comfortable in this waiting. God's timing is always right, and He is watching out for my little one, just as He was watching out for Abigail. Thank you for your encouragement and prayers. I am so blessed by you all!